Sunday, November 13, 2011

Finding My Way



I’ve been a Christian for many, many years. In that time I have served in many capacities and really enjoyed it. However, to my dismay things began to change. It all began to feel like a facade, and the words that kept going through my mind were ‘are we the modern day Pharisees?’

I did some Bible research and realized that many churches are missing the mark set out in Scripture. At the time I was serving in a leadership role, and though I was a volunteer, I was asked to attend all staff meetings, which I did. In fact, most of my time was spent at the church. But now, I felt like something was wrong.

I stopped going initially, although I did try going regularly numerous times after that as an attendee before walking away for good. It’s not that I’m a loud, insistent person. I’m really more of a guarded person who truly desires to reflect Christ to others, and I often get used and taken for granted because of that quality. I prayed to God, I wept...but I still felt like a stranger amidst His people, even though I’d known many of them for years. 

I was at a crossroad not knowing which way to turn. So I stopped there and went nowhere until I could find my way again.

For those in between years, on that Crossroad, I continued to read the Word, pray, study, meet with friends, etc. I even hosted and taught a Bible study on eschatology for a year. I loved it!

I’ve recently started attending a little church in our community. It’s been there a long time, but the leadership changed about 5 years ago and I have been watching it grow. A couple of my children and their spouses attend there and love it....so I thought I’d try it.

There’s something different there. Something very real...and maybe, just maybe I’ll finally feel like it's right. I really hope so.

Pray for me, will you?

Blessings,
Carmen